"..Tired of being what YOU want me to be...I want to be more like ME and LESS like YOU.."
Linkin Park

"Dont quit now. Suffer now and live the rest of your life as a champion"

Monday, September 22, 2014

The Social Media Platform: Impact

Social media has been a platform for me to be able to fully express myself, who I am, my passions and pain from within and to share that with the world and have them not only be able to relate to it all, but be inspired by the fact that they're not alone in all that they go through and what they feel from deep within. I show exactly who I am, what I believe in, what I've been through and I love to inspire and empower those who follow my accounts on these sites. If at all in any way I've helped, or should I say, God/higher power has helped you by using me in any way shape and form, that alone is a great blessing to me and that alone inspires me to keep growing with you all. As my path unravels, may I help you unravel yours so you can see what a truly great and beautiful shining soul you all really are. Love you all. �� #alyssagadson 

Wednesday, September 17, 2014

Faith Connects You To Your Future

"Obedience reveals the amount of faith we have"

When we believe in something strongly, we tend to run with it. On the other end, if we have the slightest doubt, it tends to slow us down from how fast we accept or move on things in our lives. This can be applied in more ways than one. Business, relationships, self growth, spiritual, emotional, mental, educational, and so on.

I know when I believe in something all the way, then I'm all the way in. So how can we be all the way into something or even someone if we doubt, or have lack of faith? 
Things cannot connect together in our lives if we are not willing to connect ourselves to faith. 

Another example: if I doubted a business deal, it will be hard to put my all into the project/deal. Whether it be fear/doubt from it failing, possibly being done wrong, fear of lack of progress, starting something and not finishing it to see the fruit thereof..
A relationship. What if he hurts me? What if he's lying and he doesn't really feel this way? Fear that my past will repeat itself again in the present. Fear of getting close. Fear of giving my all to the wrong Person again.
It can go on with pretty much anything..

Why am I using fear so much? Fear is the absence of faith.
Faith allows you to stand strong and confident in situations even when you don't know the outcome. 
Faith allows your dreams and ambitions to come to life.
Faith helps you Live your life.
Faith helps you make the most out of every situation.
Faith allows you to fight your spiritual battles and warfares within.

I can keep going..

By staying strong, confident, and pressing forward, it shows how much true faith we have within.
So if you're sitting there second guessing yourself and doubting your situations and worrying, ask yourself, how much faith do you really have?

Walk tall, be confident and know that the future is yours.
Connect yourself to faith, connect yourself to your future.

Monday, September 15, 2014


Sometimes whether it's someone in my personal life or in the public, I get questions like will I ever feel ashamed for anything that I do or anything that I've ever been through?
Understandably I can see how some would say yes but in my case there is no shame in my game
Everything I've ever been through I've always try to picture other people who are going through it and gain understanding and wisdom on others walks of life. Seeing feeling and experiencing the same tormenting pain the other people go through is enough for me to take the strength that I have and show them that they have it within themselves as well. I've walked many walks of life and I've publicly shown them all. 

From writing blogging modeling acting adult film prostitution hustling homelessness abuse and rape, to mental health issues childhood traumas, self-destruction such as cutting burning, oppression, Depression, negative thoughts, losing a child through miscarriage as a teenager, broken marriage broken home to being exploited with a pimp and so much more recent things that have happened that I've overcome. 

I've walked in so many shoes and in so many paths that I can open my own DSW. (Designer shoe warehouse).. 
A leader cannot leave their people without compassion. Compassion comes from knowing and feeling and going through what their people who follow them go through so that they know the hope that these people need. Like I've said years ago in a YouTube video, "you cannot fulfill a need that you don't understand, you cannot help someone if you don't truly understand how they feel in and out. " i've walked down so many dark paths and been a part of dark world's that's help me understand why these people are in it. In darkest there's no hope when you're going through all these things.. Until they see someone who's actually walked the same path and has felt the same feelings that they felt and has had the same trials and tribulations that they've had and has had the same affects that it has had on them. 

In order to lead effectively, and truly, one must be willing to open up to world and show the world all your scars and wounds so that does with similar scars and wounds will see that they too can have hope.

So their question was what I ever feel shame? Absolutely not it's quite the opposite and always has been and always will be. I've always put my story out there for the world to see because I want everyone to know exactly why am and that I know how they feel and I've been through it I've walked their shoes I've walked their path and me as a fighter I've overcome so much, and even when I couldn't go on I saw how God still held my hand to keep fighting to keep going to stay alive and He promised to renew my strength as He is fulfilling his promise now. I am undefeated because I spiritually roll with the team who is undefeated. 

Nothing can bring me down. Nothing can bring you down.  

I've been called crazy for this. I take that as a compliment.
I'm part of the few that's crazy and ridiculous enough to think and know that I can change the lives of many many people. So therefore I do so.


Burning With The Flames of A Thousand Fires

"You don't know me

I smile but inside I'm burning

I may look quiet but within me echoes the cries of all the women I had to set on fire to become a woman worth loving"

I used to be so hard to love. I've been through so much and I've had so many lives already, and there's so many "women" i've been within, that I've had to set on fire any and every demon from within from my past, on a journey to become a woman worth loving.
I don't feel like the progress is 100% finished, but I have made so much progress and the process has been so intense. But I will always believe that I am a student for life.

I love learning, I love growing..  Especially from within- spiritually, mentally, and emotionally. 
I've always been that way. Even three years ago when I was homeless, I was still always on the search for more knowledge, more wisdom, and more growth even in the midst of all that pain.

Honestly there's nothing like intergrowth, even if it means to break your own heart and burn from within. No diamond becomes worth $1 million without going through cuts, and fire. 

Everything and anything that you go through in life serves a purpose for your greater good. Everything that you go through is meant to contribute to your growth- inner and outer. The thing that people miss about that is to find the lesson in everything. 
I can't fathom going through something, especially something huge, and it not serving some kind of purpose for my future. There has to be some kind of lesson that I had to learn from that because otherwise there would be no real purpose for me going through it. 
Nothing in life lands on your lap for no reason. Somehow someway you needed to go through what you went through or what you're going through right now and it will keep repeating itself until you learn what you need to learn to move on. That's why anything I go through I tried to look for the lesson and the blessing. 
I know that nothing that comes my way is for no reason. 

And eventually I always do fine the blessing and the purpose behind all my scars and Tourman from the past, even if it's a small cut. It's helping to still create a beautiful diamond.

Sunday, September 14, 2014

Gifts & Visions

When I was younger, I drew many images when I felt something from a vision. And I would draw it exactly how I see it and feel. I couldn't take breaks, it's a vision happening infront of me that I'm drawing on paper.. I'd mess up the vision if I did. It wouldn't be exactly how I first saw it, in it's rawness. How it's meant to be seen. 
So I'd be on one drawing for 2-7 hours straight. No water breaks, nothing. Even through hunger, I wanted to draw the vision so much more, that I was waiting for after, to be  able to relax, to eat, talk, to be normal again.
They came in bursts. I still draw to this day.
And every image has a meaning. Future, spiritual, along those lines. 
It made me pay attention more to everything that happens in my life, everyone around me, how I feel, how I think. Because every image one day always comes to life.

Yes.. I was in pain for years, and it threw off my focus in my gifts quite a bit.. But now they are being strengthened again.. This time I'm not letting it go no matter what

No Matter How Far You Are..

"No matter how far you are... No matter how long it takes Him... Through distance and time I'll be waiting. and if i have to walk 1 million miles, i'll wait 1 million days to see you smile, through distance and time I'll be waiting..
You are always on my mind... all I do is count the days..  where are you now?" 
I love you baby girl. No distance no time can truly keep us apart. You will be in my arms very very soon again and Lord knows the amount of faith endurance and focus on strength and love it's taking on my part but for you I will give my very all to see you again..

I'm back writing!

I finally figured out my password so I just wanted to post and let you guys know that I will be posting and updating a lot of blogs so yeah get ready!!!! I'm excited and I've been trying to look for this for a year it's took me that long yeah I know.. But what matters is I'm back I got it and I'm excited so I have a lot to share with you guys a lot has happened in the amount of time that I haven't been writing so I have a lot to share