Thursday, September 17, 2015

Recognize Your Own Poison

I feel like more than ever, so far, this statement is very relevant to what I am working on personally. From the darkness of my past, BPD, and many other factors, as well as all the lessons learned so far and where it's brought me to now... I have grown a lot, just as much as I recognize that there is still growing that is being done within me. I have come, so far, to a state where I realize more and more where I have been my own "poison" all along. 

So I am actively working on it, working on my thought patterns, the vibrations I send out, my emotions as well as my behavior towards certain things. This is a very big and healthy step for me. Anyone going through a similar process, I encourage you to keep going and to not give up. Like I said, we all have the infinite power within us to change a vibration to create new results that work best for us.

Growth is so beautiful. Scars are beautiful as well. They tell the story of where you once were, and the strength encourage and love that you invested in yourself to switch that path to a healthier one for you.

#alyssagadson #positivesoul #positivevibrations #enjoythejourney #everythingisenergy #experience #energy #scars #soul #shine #spirit #freespirit #freeyourmind #vibration #journey #youniverse #loveandlight #loveyourself #healthierlife #changeisgood 

Friday, September 4, 2015

Thank You Youniverse ❤️

"It's not all about me changing the world. That is selfish to think that I'm the only one that can do it. I may or may not change the world but I definitely will spark the mind that will change the world"
Tupac Shakur 

The Youniverse cares/ Live Your Truth

I don't exactly know how to post a video on here through the mobile app. So for the video part, you can visit my Instagram. I posted the videos on there which are clips from girl meets world that have a lot to do with this message.

#Youniverse is always paying attention, teaching & evolving. So many energies traveling at once, through so many forms, and it's all here to help you learn, to help you come back to yourself, your truest form of being. That's why it's important to live your truth even if you stand alone. Or more importantly, to know that even living your truth, you're never alone. #Youniverse got you. We are all connected. "Please don't worry. I got you." -Youniverse

Lol. The truth, a lesson, even a message can be delivered in all ways through all forms. Look around you. Even in your very home where your kids are. Listen to them "in my #Kanyewest voice lol"
Kids really do have the innocence and the creativity, the kindness, the knowledge, and the messages that even you were conditioned to forget or let go. It's part of your core. They have one of the core attributes to growth: curiosity. They ask questions. They want to know.

And instead of telling them to stop asking so many questions, ask yourself why did you stop asking questions?

And pay attention to all that's around you. Do universities to you in so many ways, and most of them aren't words.

#alyssagadson #positivevibrations #vibratehigher #everythingisenergy #loveandlight #learn #lessons #growth #goodvibes #paradox #BEING #beyourself #knowyourself

Monday, August 31, 2015

Your Subconscious Mind

Pay attention to your subconscious mind. Did you know that your subconscious mind is 30,000 times more powerful than your conscious mind?

Examine the thoughts that are in your subconscious. Responses can be coming from those vibrations as well. That's where repetitive behavior starts, as well as dipping back into the past, memories, vibrations that keep certain feelings alive that no longer serve a purpose, or are even good for your soul anymore. It's just there creating responses because you haven't removed it.

Take ahold of your thoughts. Pay attention to them. Create a new thought process that will start to give you better results. 
The energy you "pay" attention to will be the experience that you "bought". 

I will Sherry personal experience related to this topic. As you all know I have been through so many things and so many different walks of life and have also had a wide variety of experiences from almost any end of the spectrum. Through this variety of experiences, comes memories. Whether good or bad. Every memory has a feeling attached. So all this gets stored in my subconscious mind and as I keep moving forward into new experiences, my subconscious mind still has stored what I went through and how I felt and the impact that it had on me. So even through this new experience that I walked into or this new part of my life or my journey, I find myself still blacking out and venturing into my subconscious mind, and digging up old experiences and how they made me feel. Most of it is usually anger. For I have been through a lot of pain. But what this is actually doing is, bringing all vibrations into a new experience. So this is also why I say pay attention to your subconscious mind and where your mind goes when you're thinking or even not thinking. Because your subconscious mind will sometimes make you feel like you're "blacking out". You ever had that conversation that you probably don't remember right after or even the next day? And there were no influences on your body to cause that other than your subconscious mind? Your subconscious mind is so powerful. It is literally 30,000 times more powerful than your conscious mind. So the vibrations that are being created through your subconscious thoughts are so important to clean out if the ones that are in there aren't feeding your soul the right "meal" for the present moment and where you want your journey to keep unfolding. For the thoughts that you pay attention to is what will continue to create what will be set before you.

So I had to come to realize this, and start actually paying attention to what I was thinking in my subconscious mind and why I was thinking these things. Why I was holding on to certain thoughts and experiences through my subconscious mind. And that is the first step on letting it all go and reprogramming your subconscious mind to where the thoughts and it will still suit you for the better and not for a negative vibration that will set you up to eventually experience the same thing over. Remember that the universe will continue to allow you to go through certain things until the lesson is learned. Once the lesson is learned it is important to clear it out of the subconscious mind and only hold onto the lesson for tomorrow.

#alyssagadson #positivevibrations #subconscious #conscious #mind #powerful #loa #lawofattraction #youniverse #knowyourself #limitless

Wednesday, August 12, 2015

The story behind my retirement from Alexis

Hey there! 

OK so as you all know I decided to quit filming in the adult industry and pretty much anything that is related to that nature and work. First off I would like to say I have met some great souls in that realm as well.

For me, I knew that because of the way I started in that certain industry, I knew it wouldn't last. In all honesty, I more so believe that I started that out of desperation more than passion and complete choice. I have learned a lot along the way and have met some great people within that industry. Anyone would asked me do I regret doing it? Well my answer is simply no. I don't believe in regret when all that I experience has something to teach me and all that I do and all the people that I meet have something to share with me that I didn't have before I met them. Whether good or bad. So the answer is no I do not have any regrets. I have learned a lot from walking that path and have gained a thorough understanding as well as to what people in that industry go through.

Every morning that I got up for a shoot was a bit of a mental struggle for me. I had to look at myself in the mirror and get it together. Same with stripping and anything in the nature of the adult industry. It took a lot out of me to make happen what I've done. Simply because it's not what I originally intended and not the original path from who I truly am. Emotionally, mentally, physically and spiritually, a toll was taken everyday that I did it. I wasn't clear on my own self worth, and the fact that I deserve what I truly want. A family. Love. Blogging. Video blogs. Modeling and speaking.

When I left my marriage, and I could no longer live with my daughter at that time, that alone took a toll on me. Throughout the path and the journey since then, I've come to learn a lot as I've also been through a lot. 

For me, I've always known that, that wasn't a career, but more so settling at the time. But the more I grew in it, the more I found myself trying to hold on to what was left of who I truly am. So I slowed down a lot on filming and stayed thinking to myself "is this something I want to keep continuing and make as a way of life? Or am I willing to drop it and fully bloom as who I am?" The toll it took on me and my personal life was a lot. It also built a distance between what I truly want and I. So I started asking myself how much longer can I hold on to something I'm not happy with? 
Why should I? Cause my name is known? 

That made no sense to me. The whole point of me even starting a YouTube channel and blog site years ago was for me to just express who I truly am openly. And the way that it helped others is what touched my soul in the first place. 

So I'd like to get back to that. To what makes me happy and being who I am and sharing my journey No matter where it leads. 

Right now my main focus is to bring my personal life back together in a much better way than before and to continue to heal from the past I've had. To embrace a future that I want and never have to settle for anything again. 

Yes I'll be doing photo shoots and interviews here and there for now. And yes eventually I'll go full throttle again but this time in a way that I'm very happy as well. Synchronized vibrations of positivity. 

I will always continue to be open and honest about my journey with you all for a long time. More than happy to. Matter of fact it's who I am :)

Much love to you all and I definitely encourage you all to never settle for anything or even anyone. Always go for exactly what you want. You will be the one riding the waves of that vibration. So create a vibration that you're actually happy with from within and continue that as it becomes a frequency to a brighter future.

Friday, June 12, 2015

Down On Bended Knee?

And ladies, why is it so wrong or hard to believe that a woman can get on one knee just as well as a man can? What is seriously wrong with that? And again I don't attack people. That's not me. I observe people. And from what I've been observing it has more to do with either a pride issue or what they've been taught and tradition which can be very sexist. A woman came at me with pride & this was my response. 

"So when he got on one knee, did that mean that he was desperate? Like I said I don't come from the sexist to just no ways that people are taught. I'm very free spirited and open-minded and equal. And I don't get how a man can do it and it's okay and if a woman does it there's something wrong. That is a very sexist way of viewing things. How can women fight for equality,  yet aren't willing to do things as equal? Since when were there rules & roles when it comes to love? Again I am not attacking you. That is not my style. I like to ask questions and gain understanding of why people think the way they do, and how much of it has to do with what they were actually taught"

I've spoken to a number of people about this, especially the ladies and I've asked what is wrong with a woman getting on one knee? So far the majority of the responses that I have received have more to do with pride and traditions then love, being humble & forthright. 

Whatever floats people's boat to help them I guess be more comfortable in finding a sense of self, I don't knock it. I'm more question everything and I Love to learn other perceptions in perspective. I like to understand everything around me. I don't believe in judging people because all I would be doing is judging myself.

Like I said all perceptions and perspectives are welcomed. I do not judge anyone I simply observe and learn.

Tuesday, May 19, 2015

Ignorance VS Awakening

Ignorance is only bliss to those who are unaware. Because it's all that they know so therefore it's what they are comfortable with. It is the very vibration that they are used to living on and creating from. Once you become awakened & aware, from that point on it becomes much harder to live on that vibration because now you know better. The whole point is to vibrate higher and get back into him with who you truly are.But to those who are already blindly following everything that is taught to them based on a Nother person's level of ignorance as well and just running with it, and carrying the vibration of ignorance, they create an illusion of a safe zone because for them, The human vibration of Ego and feeling like you have to know it all and always be right is more comfortable then questioning everything around you and expanding your knowledge beyond what's around you, and challenging yourself to grow within... because it's all they know. And they want to stick to what they know because again they want to feel like they know it all. They have more of a desire to be right than the desire to expand their mind and truly see beyond the physical vibrations.
It's like fear of the unknown. Especially for those who follow religion. Humans find it so much easier to just follow what someone says just because it sounds right or moral according to other people and society rather than actually challenging yourself and everything around you and actually trusting your inner self and growing your intuition and your instincts. Making your inner self much stronger rather than blindly following inaccuracy. 

trusting your inner energy which has been here for billions of years versus completely losing yourself in a made up history that has only been here for a few thousands of years. It's also like taking away from yourself because you are believing in a very short history rather than realizing how infinite we all truly are. 

And for most people this bothers them because of two things.. Fear of the unknown and ignorance is bliss. But if they would just open their eyes and take a look at that, the two main things in that sentence is fear and ignorance. 

We may all seek answers but so very few of us are actually willing to step outside of the physical allusion because we know that there is more to this than the physical allusion itself. Before the vast majority he, they have become so comfortable in the illusion that another human vibration can teach them about themselves, that they lose themselves and a sense of their own vibration and inner self and intuition and conform into this robotic lifestyle where everyone becomes the same. There's an illusion of diverse city but it's actually conformity. Everyone has to follow a set of rules. But what about your inner self?
When does your inner self actually get to flow and it's very own vibration that you've always had before you came to this lifetime again? And let me ask you this, or even ask yourself! Why conform? 
Why not ask questions and think for yourself? People like to preach about challenges and how there's no gain without pain and how challenges make you or break you, about growth. Will growth itself is challenging. You're taking yourself out of your old dimensions and expanding to new dimensions. Sounds nice right? Well how can you ever expect to do that if all you do is run with what someone else says or what up book says? What happened to the logical sense that books are edited overtime for other people's advantages? What about actually analyzing the stories in this book that all contradict themselves? And yes I've studied the book for long time. My mother used to walk into my room and see me study this book every day. She probably thought I was just reading it when I was actually studying it. A lot of the stories in there contradict themselves. And I know people like to think that that whole book talks about worshiping Jesus, when actually half of those stories do not worship him they worship something totally different.
BTW, J wasn't invented until after the 1500s. So John Jacob Jesus and all these characters, that is not the real name let alone the stories behind them.

So where is your sense of questioning anymore? I'm not telling you what to believe or what to think. I'm not your local pastor I'm not any of these people. Just think.